The other night I was lying in bed thinking about my day and how rough it had been. It was one of those trying days as a parent where you feel like you have screamed like a total banshee at your children all.day.long.
How Will You Be Remembered?
I felt horrible even though I told my boys how much I loved them at the end of the day and gave my kisses and hugs. Even after apologizing…I still felt
HORRIBLE as a parent.
I wanted to take back all the words that had come out of my mouth and make everything right. I didn’t want my kids to think I was a mother that barks orders at them all day. I didn’t want my kids to feel they couldn’t confide in me about their secrets or what’s going on in their life because I had placed this barrier up.
I want them to feel free to come to me. To feel welcome in their own home and never think that they don’t matter even if all I have done is bark orders to do this and do that.
So I’ve devised a plan within myself to try harder everyday to think about the words that come out of my mouth more consciously…(think before I act)
To show them more love than banshee woman behaviors…
To listen closer to their conversations…
While still showing them that I am the parent that runs the house. I am the one they still have to answer to and follow directions from. I am their mom…the one that is training them to be great men when they are fully grown and living on their own.